Do you know I mean? When I see people gather and stare at something I only knew nothing Cause my heads’ not there browsing through plastics I don’t know about you but I have never been protected I am never secure Till it becomes an excuse That I use every single day To keep myself awake and further away And when I am truly alone would I doubt if I am okay
Just one of those days Where you went dancing on your kitchen tiles From left to right Swinging shoulders from side to side With your honeys holding you too tight Right before you bring your hands down and feel easy inside Floating away For magic takes control tonight
I had a dream once when I was young I dreamed that I was floating in a calm sea Then I watched me sink slowly and then at still There stood a blue whale as big as can be Blue as my heart and eyes that was so sharp I tried moving but I was frozen, cold and weak She looked straight at me Wondering how I am even here Overwhelmed with fear of lonely Curious; like she was talking Then I felt...
Wandering aimlessly Fighting demons, fall too steep I went backwards and hit on my knees The shame awoken many of the fears I brushed cowardly and spoke endlessly Of how the hurt has toyed with ease Now I want to get back Back to where I should be Falling deeper but only when I plead
The bread that I put in my mouth will only show up as a hatred upon this whole world for creating the assumption that looking good is always on the eye of the beholder.
I am not sure what to think of you thinking about me It’s long gone and forever done I want my heart back Not broken, but fully charge Ready to love Someone who sees what we are
I can’t write better since yesterday You leave me without answers That I asked myself everyday Are you out there; are you listening? Why is it so hard for us to be together I need you, you need me Isn’t this how it’s supposed to be? I fall to my knees You didn’t see this coming One of us misread Now I am broken Wearing my heart on my sleeve I watched the sunset...
I’m not whole when I’m alone I thought you would call Counting me on I thought you need me more than I do now Leaning towards With your wide eyes open I thought you needed me more On my shoulder to cry on Maybe it’s not there; here no more
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The Worst of My Kind
The worst of my kind Is wandering aimlessly Through the night Praying to the city Wishing she will believe me When I say we are not happy With what has been happening I saw faces, they look at me weirdly Like I have no mercy I only want some solidarity Cause I am lonely When I ask you something, I hope you are listening
Enough is enough, I feel so shaken Words pour through and then is rewritten I am not that honest of who I wanted to be yet I am not so easy for the world to see I tell you solemnly that this is my last heartbeat I have decided for this is end of me
Why Try to Change Me Now?
I was always good at hiding Keeping my closet close to myself I never was wandering why the birds don’t chirp at night Something told me to never lose my sight Of the wonders of humans right Now I have always told the truth Or if the truth was false, I would deny it No words would slip from my tongue Now you say, I’m cold That I am mean I sit here wondering “how it has been?” That you...
I see you standing Watching over me You come over and I can feel me tumbling We locked eyes It seems harder to breathe We might not go anywhere But what gives? I know what you are thinking And I want the same
This is shit We only make excuses for ourselves not to believe That today is gonna be okay For us to not have fun Must we try so hard not to please others to sleep? Fighting for a reason To set out for sea
I’ve been waiting for you to come You keep me wailing; Bringing me down I feel nothing but hurt from your embrace Now I finally believe that I was asleep too long Dreaming of our footprints on the same path in the same woods While we beat each other around the same bush This needs to end I need to let you go
Too many questions Might not reply I find it easier not to apply Where you go, I don’t So I see you walk by See how the tension rise Players gone worldwide It’s easier not to notice As the day gone by We won’t even remember how we ever survived
You’re all I ever think about these days with my morning coffee The last shooting star that falls in your valley Everything I do reminds me of you laughing About the joke I told you lastly before you told me that you love me This time I know so deeply That you were meant for me I can tell by way we zinged from the beginning I love you too more than anything I have never felt this way so...
Shiny waters Down the creek Bullets thrown and get hit Hearts pounding sweet blood bleed Words racing beneath wide streets Don’t pause and greet weak Cause above the horizon The world she eats
For apologies, I have said too much You regretted mostly, I choose to avoid I might not have said I loved you so dearly But the fall was waiting in line Now there is no answer from the phone And when I see you in the winter, it will be too cold Thus we must forget what we have thought
I thought I knew everything My cure, your curse and the universal lies Now I’ve lost everything To my mind, the winner that told me the truth About you, about the world that ought to hold tight She might go blind Lonely as a star I’m not sure what I must contain I feel as whole in a hole But only stoned as my heart leads on
I find it a lot more easier not to cry When someone comes in havoc The world seems a lot more quieter When panic comes to play Now you see there is no reason for us to be afraid I only want what matters for the souls that went away To be left with lessons Survivors as pure Acknowledged what’s true For tomorrow, we will only go away so sudden And then it is heard no more
You beat me up When I am down But I got let down Too many times, it feels like fun I must say stop and let it run Cause I can’t hold on Feeling wiped and sullen like I know this all too well You were looking to pass your time And I was the fool that hold you tight Now I don’t mind if you want a bite I would just care if you stayed tonight
What else do we need to say before we end our day? Tomorrow will come out of sight With arrangements we don’t want to fight So we let it slide Come again, changing flights Trying to push forward so we don’t get checked out Waiting for the next big thing to begin
Living a day without knowing One touch can cause to tremble Further away is only at ease Scaring monsters for too long The crops they leave shadows But can’t never compete Forever a scarecrow; undisputed alone in the field
Lay the bricks One by one I pick it up and put up to stand Between the knobs and clocks That stops me from escaping the ghosts that haunts me from thinking That a silver lining would ever linger My inhibitions proves to be more clever I would do this for my own
A false epiphany Lures the skin Follows like a thief Bonding with toes on shallow trees You want it to go and not follow you home But you’re scared when it goes; that you will go cold What can you do; then hide beneath it all The shadows you follow will only grow old
The little hiccup when you start to speak Causes you to fall back to sleep It’s not you, it’s me That tells you to lose in a daydream The world tells you to obey But you’re better at foreplay And all of the answers to all of the questions comes to no way I am a bore, mostly I am bored because I am boring
The Sound of Whine
Can I go to sleep tonight; With you by my side? To hold on to in the dark Chasing me from left to right I shout out of my lungs To know if you are near Is enough for me to die We’re alone only for awhile We might as well feel alive
Happy Happy, Joy Joy
Everything reminds me of you The sun, the sky, the stars at night I feel butterflies in my stomach when you arrive Every Friday after nine I need you to know we are closer as of now Maybe then we can be more than what we are now I might lose you forevermore Is a risk I am willing to take I have seen a future with you I would like it to be true
Ladies and gentlemen Welcome to the real world This is your journey Every end has a beginning Take in as much as you want Experience the odyssey And taste everything you see Leave all your pain behind Tomorrow will be beautiful Trust; and you will see Life is a big adventure for you and me
There’s something so pure In looking at you My heart beats faster My mouth wants to know more It’s been dead too long To know that I’m alone Wondering its cold to be on my own
I like it when somebody gets excited about something. It’s nice.– J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye (via hyrrokkin)
Bury the Hatchet
I wanted honesty To look at the world and see through her eyes Oh Mother of pure; Wonder she’s in sorrow Scorned and burned To the hatchet of our mistakes Fall into her reflection down the road And see that our steps is made of the same sole
The Space Between
The space between emptiness Feels abundantly in my head My world is filled with notion That tomorrow is at stake Yet today at present I feel as whole To fill so close and at home
I Wanna Know
I feel so fake today To wake up in the morning To go to work To meet people To have a laugh I should find out why But do I want to fuck my mind once again; no more I feel drained out of life And there’s a hole in my heart Wishing this wasn’t a problem from the start And I know where I’m at Standing in front of the universe Shouting till my lungs bleed Cause I live everyday to love...
To know that I’m still here but I can’t touch Makes me want to taste you, but I want more
Misery loves company, that’s why people are assholes. But then again,...
The trouble I have When words won’t say Mountains heavily Beneath the wordplay Runs quietly till we astray Causes regrets and complaints
I can’t stand not knowing; What is there haunting? My chest goes tighter And then tumbling “Are you with her?” “Are you with somebody?” Then why are you here, Fucking my enemy You’re always this mean To the core of suffering And I’m always chasing After a dream
And I Have You
I wait for the day When you are here to stay Closer to my heart Footsteps ain’t apart The connection so strong Feelings can’t go wrong Till I see you once more I will call you my home
I wear my scars on my skin So everyone can see That I’ve got nothing to hide And everything to lose To live and ride without pride Free as a bird Together with the wind
Ice-cream for Dinner
One lazy eye Sat on a couch Eating a Christmas pie As he began to end He realize it was all too vague That the spoon he shared Was too big for grip Little he knew, it dropped to the floor And wondered why he was even hungry at all?
Like a monsoon from a quiet rain The wind crashes and stomps Like a sad song in your Daddy’s car You wish you were never so keen From the truth we know in every teenaged hearts Love comes only as a dream Once is there; broken Hiding all it seems Soon that day will come To fill my hearts content Till then and now I shall wait, With every passing meet
She finds it more subtle when the winds stop whispering Cause she can’t hold in any longer She needs to breathe The air caught between her lungs Chokes her so tightly It breathes fire Warm and ditty Now cut out There’s eyes on it Crawling slowly Sliding so seamlessly Fingering till she can’t speak