March 2013
4 posts
12 tags
Blanket
Do you know I mean?
When I see people gather and stare at something
I only knew nothing
Cause my heads’ not there browsing through plastics
I don’t know about you but I have never been protected
I am never secure
Till it becomes an excuse
That I use every single day
To keep myself awake and further away
And when I am truly alone would I doubt if I am okay
13 tags
Amazing
Just one of those days
Where you went dancing on your kitchen tiles
From left to right
Swinging shoulders from side to side
With your honeys holding you too tight
Right before you bring your hands down and feel easy inside
Floating away
For magic takes control tonight
15 tags
Blue Whale
I had a dream once when I was young
I dreamed that I was floating in a calm sea
Then I watched me sink slowly and then at still
There stood a blue whale as big as can be
Blue as my heart and eyes that was so sharp
I tried moving but I was frozen, cold and weak
She looked straight at me
Wondering how I am even here
Overwhelmed with fear of lonely
Curious; like she was talking
Then I felt...
10 tags
Feathers
Wandering aimlessly
Fighting demons, fall too steep
I went backwards and hit on my knees
The shame awoken many of the fears
I brushed cowardly and spoke endlessly
Of how the hurt has toyed with ease
Now I want to get back
Back to where I should be
Falling deeper but only when I plead
February 2013
8 posts
14 tags
Fickle
The bread that I put in my mouth will only show up as a hatred upon this whole world for creating the assumption that looking good is always on the eye of the beholder.
12 tags
Blinded
I am not sure what to think of you thinking about me
It’s long gone and forever done
I want my heart back
Not broken, but fully charge
Ready to love
Someone who sees what we are
18 tags
Heart Broken
I can’t write better since yesterday
You leave me without answers
That I asked myself everyday
Are you out there; are you listening?
Why is it so hard for us to be together
I need you, you need me
Isn’t this how it’s supposed to be?
I fall to my knees
You didn’t see this coming
One of us misread
Now I am broken
Wearing my heart on my sleeve
I watched the sunset...
8 tags
Now
I’m not whole when I’m alone
I thought you would call
Counting me on
I thought you need me more than I do now
Leaning towards
With your wide eyes open
I thought you needed me more
On my shoulder to cry on
Maybe it’s not there; here no more
13 tags
Keep Reading
You have stop here
At this interesting bit
Continue reading
You will find out where it leads
11 tags
The Worst of My Kind
The worst of my kind
Is wandering aimlessly
Through the night
Praying to the city
Wishing she will believe me
When I say we are not happy
With what has been happening
I saw faces, they look at me weirdly
Like I have no mercy
I only want some solidarity
Cause I am lonely
When I ask you something, I hope you are listening
9 tags
Watch Out
Enough is enough,
I feel so shaken
Words pour through and then is rewritten
I am not that honest of who I wanted to be yet I am not so easy for the world to see
I tell you solemnly that this is my last heartbeat
I have decided for this is end of me
18 tags
Why Try to Change Me Now?
I was always good at hiding
Keeping my closet close to myself
I never was wandering why the birds don’t chirp at night
Something told me to never lose my sight
Of the wonders of humans right
Now I have always told the truth
Or if the truth was false, I would deny it
No words would slip from my tongue
Now you say, I’m cold
That I am mean
I sit here wondering “how it has been?”
That you...
January 2013
6 posts
13 tags
Sensation
I see you standing
Watching over me
You come over and I can feel me tumbling
We locked eyes
It seems harder to breathe
We might not go anywhere
But what gives?
I know what you are thinking
And I want the same
18 tags
Sails
This is shit
We only make excuses for ourselves not to believe
That today is gonna be okay
For us to not have fun
Must we try so hard not to please others to sleep?
Fighting for a reason
To set out for sea
15 tags
Midnight Stick
I’ve been waiting for you to come
You keep me wailing;
Bringing me down
I feel nothing but hurt from your embrace
Now I finally believe that I was asleep too long
Dreaming of our footprints on the same path in the same woods
While we beat each other around the same bush
This needs to end
I need to let you go
13 tags
Off
Too many questions
Might not reply
I find it easier not to apply
Where you go, I don’t
So I see you walk by
See how the tension rise
Players gone worldwide
It’s easier not to notice
As the day gone by
We won’t even remember how we ever survived
12 tags
Cursed
You’re all I ever think about these days with my morning coffee
The last shooting star that falls in your valley
Everything I do reminds me of you laughing
About the joke I told you lastly before you told me that you love me
This time I know so deeply
That you were meant for me
I can tell by way we zinged from the beginning
I love you too more than anything
I have never felt this way so...
14 tags
Purple
Shiny waters
Down the creek
Bullets thrown and get hit
Hearts pounding sweet blood bleed
Words racing beneath wide streets
Don’t pause and greet weak
Cause above the horizon
The world she eats
December 2012
11 posts
15 tags
Too Late
For apologies, I have said too much
You regretted mostly, I choose to avoid
I might not have said I loved you so dearly
But the fall was waiting in line
Now there is no answer from the phone
And when I see you in the winter, it will be too cold
Thus we must forget what we have thought
17 tags
Sandcastles
I thought I knew everything
My cure, your curse and the universal lies
Now I’ve lost everything
To my mind, the winner that told me the truth
About you, about the world that ought to hold tight
She might go blind
Lonely as a star
I’m not sure what I must contain
I feel as whole in a hole
But only stoned as my heart leads on
15 tags
Massacre
I find it a lot more easier not to cry
When someone comes in havoc
The world seems a lot more quieter
When panic comes to play
Now you see there is no reason for us to be afraid
I only want what matters for the souls that went away
To be left with lessons
Survivors as pure
Acknowledged what’s true
For tomorrow, we will only go away so sudden
And then it is heard no more
13 tags
Bully
You beat me up
When I am down
But I got let down
Too many times, it feels like fun
I must say stop and let it run
Cause I can’t hold on
Feeling wiped and sullen like
I know this all too well
You were looking to pass your time
And I was the fool that hold you tight
Now I don’t mind if you want a bite
I would just care if you stayed tonight
13 tags
Solace
What else do we need to say before we end our day?
Tomorrow will come out of sight
With arrangements we don’t want to fight
So we let it slide
Come again, changing flights
Trying to push forward so we don’t get checked out
Waiting for the next big thing to begin
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Signs
Living a day without knowing
One touch can cause to tremble
Further away is only at ease
Scaring monsters for too long
The crops they leave shadows
But can’t never compete
Forever a scarecrow; undisputed alone in the field
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My Land
Lay the bricks
One by one
I pick it up and put up to stand
Between the knobs and clocks
That stops me from escaping the ghosts that haunts me from thinking
That a silver lining would ever linger
My inhibitions proves to be more clever
I would do this for my own
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Shadows
A false epiphany
Lures the skin
Follows like a thief
Bonding with toes on shallow trees
You want it to go and not follow you home
But you’re scared when it goes; that you will go cold
What can you do; then hide beneath it all
The shadows you follow will only grow old
14 tags
Bored
The little hiccup when you start to speak
Causes you to fall back to sleep
It’s not you, it’s me
That tells you to lose in a daydream
The world tells you to obey
But you’re better at foreplay
And all of the answers to all of the questions comes to no way
I am a bore, mostly
I am bored because I am boring
November 2012
10 posts
14 tags
The Sound of Whine
Can I go to sleep tonight;
With you by my side?
To hold on to in the dark
Chasing me from left to right
I shout out of my lungs
To know if you are near
Is enough for me to die
We’re alone only for awhile
We might as well feel alive
13 tags
Happy Happy, Joy Joy
Everything reminds me of you
The sun, the sky, the stars at night
I feel butterflies in my stomach when you arrive
Every Friday after nine
I need you to know we are closer as of now
Maybe then we can be more than what we are now
I might lose you forevermore
Is a risk I am willing to take
I have seen a future with you
I would like it to be true
14 tags
Perception
Ladies and gentlemen
Welcome to the real world
This is your journey
Every end has a beginning
Take in as much as you want
Experience the odyssey
And taste everything you see
Leave all your pain behind
Tomorrow will be beautiful
Trust; and you will see
Life is a big adventure for you and me
15 tags
Courage
There’s something so pure
In looking at you
My heart beats faster
My mouth wants to know more
It’s been dead too long
To know that I’m alone
Wondering its cold to be on my own
“I like it when somebody gets excited about something. It’s nice.”
– J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye (via hyrrokkin)
18 tags
Bury the Hatchet
I wanted honesty
To look at the world and see through her eyes
Oh Mother of pure;
Wonder she’s in sorrow
Scorned and burned
To the hatchet of our mistakes
Fall into her reflection down the road
And see that our steps is made of the same sole
15 tags
The Space Between
The space between emptiness
Feels abundantly in my head
My world is filled with notion
That tomorrow is at stake
Yet today at present
I feel as whole
To fill so close and at home
19 tags
I Wanna Know
I feel so fake today
To wake up in the morning
To go to work
To meet people
To have a laugh
I should find out why
But do I want to fuck my mind once again; no more
I feel drained out of life
And there’s a hole in my heart
Wishing this wasn’t a problem from the start
And I know where I’m at
Standing in front of the universe
Shouting till my lungs bleed
Cause I live everyday to love...
October 2012
13 posts
15 tags
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To know that I’m still here but I can’t touch
Makes me want to taste you, but I want more
10 tags
“Misery loves company, that’s why people are assholes. But then again,...”
15 tags
Phony
The trouble I have
When words won’t say
Mountains heavily
Beneath the wordplay
Runs quietly till we astray
Causes regrets and complaints
15 tags
Jealousy
I can’t stand not knowing;
What is there haunting?
My chest goes tighter
And then tumbling
“Are you with her?”
“Are you with somebody?”
Then why are you here,
Fucking my enemy
You’re always this mean
To the core of suffering
And I’m always chasing
After a dream
13 tags
And I Have You
I wait for the day
When you are here to stay
Closer to my heart
Footsteps ain’t apart
The connection so strong
Feelings can’t go wrong
Till I see you once more
I will call you my home
21 tags
Liberated
I wear my scars on my skin
So everyone can see
That I’ve got nothing to hide
And everything to lose
To live and ride without pride
Free as a bird
Together with the wind
20 tags
Ice-cream for Dinner
One lazy eye
Sat on a couch
Eating a Christmas pie
As he began to end
He realize it was all too vague
That the spoon he shared
Was too big for grip
Little he knew, it dropped to the floor
And wondered why he was even hungry at all?
13 tags
Stranded
Like a monsoon from a quiet rain
The wind crashes and stomps
Like a sad song in your Daddy’s car
You wish you were never so keen
From the truth we know in every teenaged hearts
Love comes only as a dream
Once is there; broken
Hiding all it seems
Soon that day will come
To fill my hearts content
Till then and now I shall wait,
With every passing meet
10 tags
Choke
She finds it more subtle when the winds stop whispering
Cause she can’t hold in any longer
She needs to breathe
The air caught between her lungs
Chokes her so tightly
It breathes fire
Warm and ditty
Now cut out
There’s eyes on it
Crawling slowly
Sliding so seamlessly
Fingering till she can’t speak
